Humbleness & Humility

To: Me

From: My Light Self

Message:

Though I never once felt sorry for her, in retrospect, I’m sorry to admit that now realize that I did look down on her… not as if I thought I could do better than her, but that my way of thinking was better, my emotional processing was better, my logic was better, my decisions were better… I think my ego was extra large because for a time she really wanted to learn from me a different way to live…her motivation could be described as _terminal_… But, when she had learned enough to side-step enough, she decided it was time for her ego to have a turn…she decided she had enough of me and my different ways, and she stuck it to me at my most vulnerable spot… Two years later and I still haven’t truly acknowledged how much it hurt…another false ego protection: If I pretend that it didn’t hurt then it didn’t hurt, right?

The truth is, wow, she got me good…I truly did not see that coming…that _really_ hurt me…someone could really hurt me like that… Actually, there were some earlier signs…but, I did not address them…that’s on me…but I still didn’t expect that the big hit could be _that big_

To humble myself I must admit to myself: I have less life experience than I thought...time to stop covering up for that with logic

Logic and the logical mindset that I so pride myself on can only so far…it can only create guesses based on what limited information is known at the time… _Experience_ is what logic requires to make a good guess... Experience is the truth of what happened in one’s life

To: me, It’s okay to not know it all.. It’s okay to be adding to your list of life experiences…that’s life, right!? If you knew it all you’d be done… Forgive yourself for the times you are unknowledgeable, and if you get hurt again, forgive everyone, including yourself… Know that you can always pick yourself up again, but that big ego is only dead weight slowing you down, so please be humble

Namaste