Self rejection

To: My wounded self

From: Light of Truth

Message:

On some level unbeknownst to my conscious self, I must’ve taken her rejection of a 3D life as a rejection of my entire self... given how much I had poured into the relationship that was such an insult… that really hurt… I would think to myself pensively, “How _could_ she?” …but, the world is vast… of course, there would be people capable of treating others like that… and of course, as someone with trust issues, I’d find someone like that to be in a relationship with… To come full circle the question would be, “So, how did she become like that?” … perhaps she felt she had to in order to cope, that it was the only way she knew how to respond, or that her attitude is because the world owes her… At the end of it all, it once again comes down to me accepting myself, even if a soul mate rejects me… knowing that rejection is a misalignment of timing… knowing that I did the best I could at the time… sure, it wasn’t perfect… sure, I made some mistakes… but I did get some things right… some really, really good things right… and I’ll learn from those mistakes… Looking back, if I had to do it again I’d do it all the same, for I do believe that despite how it ended, my time together with her and her girls was a huge net positive… Of course it wouldn’t end all nice and rosy…it ended the way it did so that I could choose to learn… that I have to be the one that sees the good in me, regardless of how anyone may choose to see me—especially my loved ones… that I have to know my value, to choose to believe in my value, and choose to connect with myself... I forgive myself for putting myself through all that... yeah, there were some very difficult moments… but in the end I see that it was really good… those are memories that I can look back on and cherish… that’s what I had always asked for… THANK YOU