Wants vs. Needs

To: Crystal

From: Lyndon

Message:

There's something that my heart has wanted for a very long time. I've always thought that having that one particular thing would be the answer to my problems, the cure for my unhappiness in life. But I was recently given the knowledge that I'm not currently scheduled to be getting that particular thing any time soon, or that I may not get the picture perfect vision of it I had always imagined; and that there may be some very heavy work that comes with it. I was crushed at the thought that I may never find what my heart seeks.

But, I came across a song by the Rolling Stones called "You Can't Always Get What You Want". The chorus goes:

You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes, you just might find
You get what you need

When I heard this, I remembered something that I learned in a workshop long ago; that if I live my life believing that I need to have something in order to feel happy in life, then I'd never find that happiness.

There were times when I came close to having that thing that my heart's always wanted. But now when I look back at those times I think that maybe it was just some form of blissful escapism, that I chose to spend time not building the things I set out to build, to achieve the goals that I set out for myself. I'm realizing now that the happiness that I seek in life comes from within, that it's time for me to change.

My time with you was the closest I came to having what my heart has always wanted.?I think that if the feelings weren't as strong and I didn't feel?as crushed I wouldn't be forced to find an answer.?I wouldn't have learned the lesson. Once again, such high highs and such low lows.?Thank you for being there; I'm not sure if I would have clued in otherwise.